The world can run on its own. Even without you. The world doesn't rest on your presence. It was running perfectly well before you and your ideas came along, and it will continue to do so, without you for ages to come.
So break away. Be with your self. If there is any one who needs your presence, your time, your concerns, it is you, your self.
What do you need? What are your own desires, dreams, expectations? What's your bucket list? Have you even made one?
You get one life. One body. How much time do you spend thinking about it and it's needs?
Peace. Your entire being is screaming for it. But the noise of this world over powers that scream. Engulfs it. While you run around in circles, desperate to win every smile, every favor, every friendship, you keep your own needs aside.
Why is it so wrong to be selfish? Self centered? Why is the very word meant to sound so derogatory? In an ideal world, every one is concerned about every one else. Which means that every one should be duly cared for and be loved immensely. However, an ideal world does not exist.
You are responsible for your self. Period.
The world will always put their own needs, desires, wants, necessities, whims, dreams, aspirations before yours. So why should you not do the same? At least, for even once in a life time?
There are a thousand and more strings attached to you. Each pulls you in a different direction. A direction away from your self. Break a few of these strings. Break them all. Be free. Stand up for your self. Find your own ground and stay there. For a while. May be for an eternity. Until you have reconciled with your self, with your soul. With the you, who, sits quietly inside you, waiting patiently for you to commune with her. She waits with a trust and innocence of a child. Don't let her down. Not again. Not every single time.
She is the only one to whom you can return, when the world turns on you. She is you. Don't break her trust, don't let her hopes fade away. She has her own dreams and desires. Desires which were never materialistic. Simple, innocent desires.
Sit with her some day. Talk to her. She has so much to tell you about you. It's only when you know yourself inside out, can you have the strength to walk back to the world. To the society. To instant everything. Be calm within your self. The mind gets restless and then, there is this constant chatter. Non stop. Incessant. Merciless. Painful. Exhausting. Tormenting. Dangerous.
Don't let the chatter start. It's excruciating to put a stop to it. The chatter breaks your concentration. Plays nasty games with your thought process and subconscious mind.
Stay quiet. Calm. Thoughtless. Inert. Placid.
Don't stretch your self so far. Don't take yourself for granted. You are only human. And it's absolutely fine to be one. Every one around you is one. So why be different? Or pretend to be different? How does it help you? Why torment your self and overlook your own priorities for a society, a world, a relation which is temporary?
Come back to your self. Be with her. She needs you more than you can imagine. You need her more than you can fathom.
For once, break free.